What you describe could be any of a couple dozen things I've written, none of which do I remember clearly. All I can suggest is that you acquire and read or listen to my entire output of the past 40 years--sooner or later, you will run across the piece you seek. It would be interesting if you had a medical/psychiatric checkup before and after this exercise. Let us know the results.
P.S. You might start with Uncle Boris in the Yukon.